My Story, Part 1: My Road to the CrossFit Games

Hi! My name is Natalie Newhart, the worlds most driven and passionate nutrition coach. 

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I’m 32, I’m really good at pull-ups, I hate small talk, and I have the will to fucking win at everything I do.

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My journey of peaks and valleys has turned me into the relentless and resilient machine that I am today. This is Part 1 of my 3 Part story:

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I got a Bachelors in Environmental Science, doing nerdy shit like measuring rivers and water quality. Then I found CrossFit in a local rock climbing gym. 

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I set my sights on competing at the CF Games, so I quit my environmental job and put all my savings into opening up a CrossFit gym in Vail, CO, specifically so I could train more for the CFG.

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It took me 3 years to qualify as an individual at the 2013 CrossFit Games. It was worth it.

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The week before the 2013 Games, I went through a divorce.. it’s your typical story of how CrossFit just became such a big part of my life and my spouse was not supportive of it, so we grew apart. It was quite the emotional roller coaster- when I flew back home after the Games, I had no home and no car, but the one thing i did have a was a relentless drive to get back to the CF Games. Healthy or not, it was my obsession.

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I lived on a friends couch and skateboarded my way to the gym and back to coach and train for a few months until I could get back on my feet.

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In 2014, I blew a disc in my back which took me out of the qualifying process for the 2014 Games. After my back healed, I dedicated myself to getting stronger- I moved across the states to train at Westside Barbell for an entire summer, I trained with the best CF athletes for experience, and I seeked out every opportunity that would allow me to gain the slightest improvement as an athlete (new coaches, nutritionist, new training environments).

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In 2015 Southwest Regionals, I fell one spot shy of punching my ticket. Once again, the heavy weights held me back. 

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After 2015 Regionals, I questioned whether i should throw in the towel because I felt like there was nothing else i could have done… I was doing all the things I was supposed to do but I wasn’t getting stronger- I trained with intention, I ate right, I slept right, and I believed in myself until I realized that maybe I just didn’t have what it took to qualify no matter how hard I tried.

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A person that I trusted agreed that all my hard work was NOT paying off, that my body was not able to recover fast enough. This person recommended I try Anavar, a PED which I knew nothing about… I thought about it, talked it over with a friend, and decided to give it a shot. I did not realize what I was getting myself into. I wish I had somebody to tell me and help me fully understand the risk I was taking. 

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I took the pill daily for about 4 months. My strength improved and I recovered much quicker. The high of all the PRs was just as extreme as the lows I was about to face after getting caught in February 2016. I was disqualified from CF for 2 years and my name became that shitty cheap toilet paper you wipe your ass with. I literally felt like the trash that people throw out the window and step on. In my mind, I had 2 choices: 1) run from the shame and take my life or 2) to live in the gutter where I deserved to be. I chose the latter. I walked around with shame written all over my face, head down, shoulders slouched, and a desperate desire to feel worthy. Nobody could really help me because nobody could relate to what I was going through internally.

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After a few depressing months, I decided to create a new version of myself that wasn’t going to be associated with CrossFit. Instead, I chose to set my sights on being an Olypmpia champion for Women’s Phsyique- an achievement that was going to be harder than qualifying for the CF Games. But i was ready for a new challenge. I needed a new challenge, something to make me feel like confident in myself again.

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Stay Tuned for Part 2…..

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